Blog Post: Marie Jacotey 

100 sec with you is a text composed of selected fragments of a longer text featured in my eponymous latest textile installation. In this work, we find those words handwritten alongside drawings adorning curtain walls and beds of a recreated dormitory. The narrative is intending to relate some highly personal experiences and even though told from an ‘I’ perspective, it is not autobiographical per se. I didn’t wish it to be seen from a specifically gendered standpoint. I envision it to be a sort of a celebratory testimony of how some loving relationships - however long lasting or not - can shape us and transform us. The work was created during my studio bursary at Hospitalfield.

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You were right:

100 sec with you

And the rest of the world

Feels lukewarm

MMXVIII.IX.XV

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You opened your mouth to let a stream of bullshit

Flow, untamed, wild free fall of insanities

Random subject matters;

Pieced together as your voice followed your drifty mind

– it seemed –

But it made sense to me

In a deeper, subterranean buried understanding

Like earth speaks if you let it –

Or some say, I have never experienced it first hand,

I knew the real meaning of your words:

HELP

Of all those things,

Some were so ugly to hear

But if I felt anger: it was in me already

And you felt like such a cataclysmic demonstration

Of how one would go on about setting free

Or just destroying any relationship

I was never quite sure

And I loved that mess of yours

As it also generated pure bliss

You had it all sorted, sure

But it screamed

SO LOUD

LOVE ME

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Tempus fugit but love lingers

Memento mori & wild love me

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You reminded me how stuck I was

Fearing my own heart beats

When pretending not to

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You shiver in horror

That they should know

How dark your soul is

How little you laugh everyday

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Your hands on that first night

Crumpled those nasty thoughts

And I felt alive like rarely

And there I stood in the morning: beaming

Because you made me

In love with you and the whole world

Because you made me

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Say: goodbye darkness

GOODBYE DARKNESS